did it alone

 

By the title you may think this is another not so happy post from the ones before.. WRONG. this is a great happy post!

Monday mornings S and I train for the 5K. We are doing the couch to 5K program and the app on my phone is amazing! We are doing great and today seems so short!

Monday afternoons C is (supposed to) comes and does P90X with me. Tonight, she had a good excuse not the make it but I still did it.

I did it alone.. and loved it..

I actually did an hour of p90X and 30 mins of another video. I always loved bootcamp but doing these videos make me miss bootcamp sooooo much. Although I know that it is not possible right now in my life to do bootcamp (hubs doesn’t get off in time for me to make it, he leaves before the first class.. and bootcamp doesn’t have daycare) I am looking forward to the day I can go back. UNTIL THEN.. p90x and I will get along great! He reminds me of my bootcamp trainer in everyway possible which is a plus. It is way better than having some boring person say pushups.. 1. 2. 3… 

The best part of working out at home.. my chica cheers me on. She says “mommy, he said only 1 more min” or “I just knew you can do it” or “highfive”  It is awesome having my own personal cheerleader! Plus I think it is teaching her something. Not sure what she is learning but she is learning something I am sure!

My alone workout was followed by tilapia with garlic and lemon juice and some steamed brussel sprouts. (yes, I have come to find out that I love brussel sprouts.. unless they are watery and mushy. I like the single packs that you steam in the microwave- hey, its better than a bag of chips!)

tomorrow I walk with my mom (ill add some jogging into that) and then p90x with S and K.

Pretty much if 3 days a week running, 2 days walking, and 4 days p90x doesn’t get me where I want to be, then lipo here I come. If I give it my all and that isnt good enough.. they can just suck it out of me!   (all said in humor.. honest.. but humor)

now time for some homework!

Explaining

 

with-in 10 mins of posting my last post I already had someone asking me what is wrong. I did not mean to offend anyone or hurt anyone's feelings. I do thank you for caring enough to call and ask though.. but, Nothing is wrong.

Here is what has happened to explain where I am coming from.. (this is only a few examples)

it has been over 6 months since a friend has invited me to do something with them. Other than a group activity such as a holiday party or get together with multiple people, I have not had on single friend ask me to dinner, shopping, or even just lunch at their house. This is confusing to me. Anything we do, it is because I invited them. Because I made the effort. Because I miss them. I wonder why? I tell myself they are busy but then I hear they did this or that with this or that person. On top of that, I invite them to EvErYThInG.. because I enjoy them.. so I take it they do not enjoy me (hint.. falling into a negative slump)

I share a ton with my friends.. good/bad/stupid/important.. I want to tell them because I would want to know these things about them. For a year now I have watched the “sharing” dwindle. people don’t want to share their life with me.. so, I began to question if I am being to open (hint.. this is part of where I decided I am open and should become more private.. this was not the reason I decided this though. I have felt as if I should be more private for years now.. it is just a small part of my decision)

These are just two examples and although they both have to do with my friends.. it isn’t just friends.. it is life in general.

I am 26 years old. I fell as though I am pretty much in the same spot as I was when I was 22 years old. Things are different though, I just try to keep them the same. SO now I will accept the different things and make the best out of how life is now. I don’t want to have my feelings hurt because I make time or the effort and others don’t. Maybe their effort is different than mine. Actually, I am sure their effort is different than mine. Maybe they no longer need me in their life.. sad or not, happiness can come from this. Being grateful for what was and happy with what is will get me way farther in life than being said that what is resembles nothing of what was. Make sense?  Again, it is life in general.. not just friends.

p.s. Zak and I are great! Actually better than ever, prob because I stopped thinking about everything and everyone else and decided my best friend sits beside me on the couch. My life is great the way it is and the way it is headed. My husband and daughter are the ones that matters.. we have always been good together but I feel as though now we are great together.

Nothing is wrong. I love you all. And this all came from me realizing what I am doing wrong in my life. and from the simple realization that life changes and I was fighting for the old life when my current life is wonderful regardless of the changes or the things I miss!

Step One/Two/Three

 

Step One of a new plan…

Well, step 1 has already begun. I am living a healthier life. Eating healthy. Doing healthy! I am running a 5K in October (I know that is a long ways away but that is plenty of time to get in shape and be able to run the entire way. That is the goal) I am exercising 4 days a week. Soon to be 5 days a week. It is always wonderful when you have people in your life that know how important it is and invite you or themselves to do the journey with you. It is support that is shown when you have people in your life that make the time to help you get to where you want to be. So, Thank you mom for walking with me 2 times a week! Thank you Sonja for committing to 3 days a week of running and for wanting to do this 5K! Thank you Casey for asking me to be your workout buddy again. P90X .. we are rocking it! Thank you Kristen for taking the time out of your crazy busy schedule to spend an hour 2 times a week to workout with me. Yall are awesome! I have to also say, thank you to my husband for eating all these new foods I make and sucking it up when I know all you want is a pizza. Thank you to Mady for being awesome while I am working out instead of playing with you.

Step 2 has been going on for a while now. School. School is making me realize I am different than I use to be. I am no longer book stupid.. if you want to call it that.. not that I was ever called that. But I have knowledge now. To everyone that it always came easier to in school, I am working extremely hard and accomplishing it all on my own, with a life, and a child. GO ME.. p.s. I still have a 4.0.. (pray that this quarter didn’t change that!.. only 1 more week)

It looks like I am now on step 3.  Step 3, embracing my family in the most positive way possible. We all fall into a slump where we feel negative so we are negative. The smallest things can bother us. This isn’t like me but I feel as thought I am and have been falling into this slump. It is time to embrace my husband (more and more everyday) embrace my daughter (regardless of the choices she makes as a 4 year old) and embrace the joy. I want to be more private. I want our family to be our family. The day to day stuff is our business. That is how I want it. I have amazing people in my life but they know everything about me. Everything I do, say, eat, feel… My little family should be the only ones that know all this. I want my life, my family, to be quite.. to be private. So, if I no longer tell you what I am doing or did on a daily basis (friends and family) please don’t take it personal. I want to focus on what God has blessed me with instead of talking about what God has blessed me with. If this makes since to you then yay.. if not, just ask.. Ill try to explain it better! (p.s. I know blogging and being private are contradicting.. but maybe it is a good compromise for everyone that wants to know and for the things I want to share without being asked questions and so on) I guess we will see how this embracing my family and being private thing goes! It is hard for me not to tell the things that excite me.. and well, even a meal I cooked can excite me.. My husband is a private person. My daughter is a quite person. I want my life to be that way. So, if you ask what I did and I give you a simple answer without details, it is because of STEP 3. It has nothing to do with you (friends and family) it has everything to do with my new plan.

Oh Life

The post I did have here I have deleted. It was long, detailed, maybe confusing. It led a few people to wonder what was wrong. (even after I expalined a little bit in a few post after this one) It led a few people to ask who did what and when and why. That was not the point of the post. I was simply writing my feelings.. So I am thinking about starting a private blog that I can say the not so happy things in my life that I feel I should be able to say since not everyone has 24/7 happy feelings. It does not mean I am not happy. It does not mean things are going wrong. I will contiue to post the happiness for you all though becuase happiness is what we should focus on and 90% of my life is happy. (one or two unhappy seeming post do not mean anything is wrong)

I will now simply say what I said in such detail earlier..

simply said:

life changes
people change
there is nothing we can do about it

I have spent almost a year fighting life. fighting for it to all be the same. In 2011, I watched life change. Myself, my life, and the people in it. The change was not bad just sad in ways. I just wanted things to be the same. The same people, the same events, the same moments. It is time to grow up. I want to grow up and move on. A new chapter in my life. It is time to accept that life has changed and that includes people, places, and things. I will no longer fight life to be the same. I will no longer hope for life to be the same. I am now ok with the change. The fight isn't worth it. Some things are not worth it. Some things should be left alone and we should be greatful for what was and allow what is.

Happiness follow everything. It is our choice to allow happiness. We fight it becuase it is new. It is different. We as humans don't like change. Change is good though. Change brings new. NEW is good. I am ready for new. I love my old, but I no longer feel as my old life loves me. It has left me.. just as life leaves everyone.. and the new is trying (hard) to take over. No more fighting life..

About to skip down a new road/journey of life! Exciting!!!

Who she is at 4 1/2

 

in 5 months, she will be 5 years old. 7 months ago, she just turned 4 years old. Where does time go? Within the last 6 months I have watched her change, grow up, become more independent, and mature {in ways}. Who she was 6 months ago and who she is today are so different. CRAZY DIFFERENT.. I mean she is the same, she has the same laugh, she has the same humor, she loves the same, and her “cry face” is the same.. but so much has changed

WHO SHE IS AT 4 and a half..

she is:
silly
talkative {to the ones she knows}
the shyest girl in her class
smarter than she leads on
giving and caring (for ex. she wanted to take a watermelon slushy from sonic and put it at Kristen front door when she got home since watermelon is her favorite")
emotional
easily heart broken

she can:
add single digits
read all of the first box set of bob books
sound out almost any word with a 70% chance she will get it right
comb her hair by herself
buckle her carseat
count to 15 super fast, and count to 100 super slow
draw pictures that she is looking at
write every letter in the alphabet clearly her Yes are backwards though)

she knows:
some Spanish
some sign language
all colors and most shapes (has a problem with hexagon}
the makes of a few cars {ford, bmw, vw}

she loves:
choco almond milk and silk milk
bugs
Sunday school and riding to church with Daris
clothes that she picks out herself
tape.. putting tape on everything.. clothes, walls, paper, toys
pjs all day {multiple times a day she changes in to a different pair}
marshmallows
playing with toys
reading books
chalk
being creative with crafts
feeding the fish
going to preschool
science (anything with the human body)
Jewel
Kids place live on Sirius Radio
Daddy going fast in his BMW

she hates:
brushing her hair
spicy food
cleaning her room after nap time

her thing:
growling at you when she doesn’t get her way {this is currently at a stop}
hissing at you out of anger {the hissing sound is not allowed, the face is sooo funny}
pushing repeat on her radio and changing the cds her self
cupcakes with Sonja
writing letters to whoever {even things that are not real or able to get a letter}
putting her tongue and spit on everything {I can not figure out how to put this to a stop}
writing in all caps. Even though schools say they have to write in lower case
making up rules to board games

The list goes on, and I will prob add a few things to it in the next couple of days but that is just off the top of my head!

EMOTIONS

 

I know, without a doubt, that I am blessed with the most wonderful little girl. She is amazing. 9 8 times out of 10 she listens. She always behaves herself in public. She does have her moments of being a crazy out of control almost 5 year old BUT regardless, I don’t feel as though I have a true real reason to complain about how she acts here and there. I am blessed and I want to continue to be thankful for that. WITH THIS SAID: my child.. MY CHILD is Emotional! Really, she may just be the most emotional child I have ever seen or dealt with. Her feelings get her easy. (this might not be a plus when it comes to growing up in world now a days) she wants things her way and she cries over the silliest little things that are not silly to her. For Example:

We are having a great picnic outside on the porch. {Our porch is not large enough for a picnic blanket to spread out but she doesn’t like the sun in her eyes so we make due with the shaded porch} After we eat, she decided she wants to play with the new butterfly net from target. Although there are not butterflies out at this point, she wants to give it a shot. She begins with ants. Stomping her feet every time the net doesn’t catch the ant. After explaining to her that while she is stomping her foot she is prob killing the ants and the net is for flying bugs only.. she takes off in the yard. I see her running around grunting and trying to catch a bug flying around. When I asked her what she was trying to catch she says “you know, one of those big fat bees that don’t sting but I cant get it” I let her continue to try to catch the bee as a turn my attention back to my homework. Then she is standing in front of me trying to catch a … yellow jacket..  oh no no no.. you can not catch yellow jackets they will sting you if you make them mad by bothering them. Then.. SHE CRIES

she doesn’t cry because I told her no. She cries because “it is spring and there are not a lot of big fat bees outside to catch and there will never be enough big fat bees and that is the only bee I like and the only bee that wont sting me” I tell her that spring just started.. there will be plenty of other bugs outside within the next weeks and months.. but she is pessimistic (yea, I know where she gets that from) and she is sure there will never be a bug for her to catch.

 

moving forward to that night:

We are sitting on her bed and zak asked me if I was done doing my homework. I told him no and I didn’t plant on finishing it. Then she goes all emotional on me.. “I really want you to do your homework. You have to go to school. I want you all day but you have to go to school. I really want you to do your homework” needless to say I said ok, kissed her, and did my homework.

 

Moving forward to the next day:

she is picking the pretty polish off her toenails. without even thinking {like most parents do here and there} I just blurted out something. 
me: if you don’t stop I am going to cut them all off (I have no idea why I chose to say that}
Mady: tears running down her eyes.. it is going to hurt if you cut them all off!!
ooppss, guess I’ll pay more attention to what I am saying next time..

and so she says

 

The first time she has said it.. although I know it wont be the last…

sitting on the edge of her bed, she tells me she doesn’t want to go to bed. I tell her sorry but it is bed time and she has to go to bed. Then she says:

UGGHH.. YOU’VE RUINED MY LIFE!!
me: what? did you say I ruined your life?
Mady: YES!!!! UUGGHHH!!!
me: oh. well I thought I made your life great. I mean, I did take you to build a bear today
Mady: ::thinking::: yea… that was fun
me: and I did take you to the candy store today which you know I never give you candy
Mady:  ::thinking::: yea.. that was fun too
me: so, do you still think I have ruined your life?
Mady: no. it just isn’t fair I have to go to bed

now, I am not in denial or anything. I knew the day would come where I was no longer cool. Where everything I did or said seemed to be the end of the world for her. I knew the day would come where she would say things she didn’t mean but I had no idea at the age of 4 1/2 she would already think I ruined her life. (I honestly laughed on the inside when she said it though) now, just think.. I have about 16 more years of her saying those types of things.. I guess I am lucky that I have a sense of humor and I find her cute when she is angry.. I think she is adorable when she stomps her foot and walks away. Or she slams her arms/hands down by her side to show she is not happy with what I said. It takes everything for me to not laugh or smile in her face about it. There are more times than not that I must turn away, get the small giggle out of the way, and then explain why she can’t and shouldn’t act that way. all in all though, I really find her anger adorably humorous..  I wonder at what age she will be when I no longer feel this way.

Dentist trip number 2

 

The last dentist trip didn’t go amazing. It actually wasn’t that bad, but lets just say: there was tears, no cleaning of the teeth, and no trip to the toy store.

That was 3 months ago

So today marks the 1st 2nd trip to the dentist.

No tears, All cleaned, and a trip to build a bear!

Again, yes.. I bribed her if you want to call it that. I personally think she deserved a prize after being AmAzInG in a situation I KNOW made her extremely nervous. She is just like me when it comes to her personality. She make look like Zak but she thinks like me. Anything out of her comfort zone, she is willing do to, but her anxiety shoots sky high. I am the same way. I don’t like/enjoy the unknown. I like/enjoy new things but I don’t like the unknown part. Once I am there and it is happening I am fine (most the time) but it is the unknown building up to the situation. She was nervous (for weeks) all day today. She randomly came to me after preschool shaking.. shaking.. I asked her what was wrong and she made me guess. I knew the answer but I didn’t want to say it. After 3 guesses she looked at me and said “mommy, it’s the dentist. you know that”

I think she wanted to get it over and done with because she made us leave early so we arrived 30 mins early, we walked across the street to check out a clothing shop that she spotted a “beautiful blue dress that I really want” then when we were waiting she kept asking, can I please go back there now. Then they said MADYSON

We waited and waited. Then he spotted the blue dress. The face below is the “I really want that beautiful blue dress, REALLY I really really want it” face. {She didn’t get the dress}

MADYSON JADE GETTING HER TEETH CLEANED!
3/14/2012

After the Dentist and being extremely proud of herself.. we headed to build a bear.
I give her credit, she picked out a cute one this time. She and I usually don’t agree on which stuffed animal is the cutest but today I was impressed. With cute clothes to!

Pretty clean teeth! Gosh I love the gaps! Bummer that I know (from a dental point of view) you want are supposed to want them closed up. We need proximal surfaces to protect our gums so we don’t end up with “black triangle” disease. 

The day ended with some clean teeth, a cute kitten named Kalee, and some amazing 80 degree weather in the middle of march!

SoOo much to do

 

This is just kind of a to-do list for myself for the next month.. you could call it goals but they are goals that MUST be met!

 

* FASFA

* End of project for Dental Science

* End of project for Prevent. Dentistry

* Get all study guides together before next Thursday's test (and study)

* Mady’s school stuff for registration

-order birth certificate

- notarized paper

* Make our Will and Life Insurance

* Water changed in fish tank

* Get spring clothes out of storage

* Start kind of packing for Hawaii, really just making a list of what I need

* See Zak’s side of the family.. I miss them

* Get Mady a tricycle or scooter for the track area

* Cancel Hulu

 

there are so many more other important things.. it is after midnight though so I assume that is why I can not think of them

Golly BUM

I love living social and groupon.

I look at the nightly.

I buy from them.

Recent purchases:

Tickets to the comedy catch - 2 tickets for $12 and can be used on shows for $30 ticket prices
Rainboots - $30 for $60 pair of rain boots
Vistaprint - $10 for $50 worth of whatever I choose

Average savings is over 50%

Vistaprint was hard though. I figured I could get some regular prints of pictures I have been putting off printing. This was not the case. I had the perfect thing and it only cost 10$ since it was on sale. After realizing I HAD to spend $40 more at the moment I checked out becuase if not I would not be able to use the other left over money at another time, I spent 2 hours trying to figure out what to get. 2 hours! I did get somthing I hve been waiting forever for though!

a tshirt..

it says:

Mrs. Sabin
est: 08.09.08

This I am excited about! (it was only 12$)

Go check out livingsocial or groupon!

Isn’t it funny?

 

I have always heard people say that it drives them crazy when others give their opinion about how to raise a child or what to do with a child when they don’t have a child of their own. This has never bothered me. I just take what they say, process it (because it could be something I have never thought about) and then ignore it if they are just ignorant ideas.

Up until recently, this really had never bothered me. It bothered me more to hear people say how it drove them crazy. Now, NOW, I slightly understand.

I have my opinions and choices on how I raise Mady. As you know, I have had a really hard time figuring out the school situation and where to raise Mady at. It has honestly been the hardest decision for me. I am not one to really question my decisions once they are made but this I questioned. (Along with everything else during that time of my life)

People are ignorant.

Just because this person “heard” of a situation by a “close friend” about that school. OR, the negatives of doing this or that with Mady.. DOESN’T mean it isn’t the right thing for my family. Yes there are pros… and cons.. to EVERY situation. To every decision. Don’t you think I have thought about them. I have heard everything you are going to tell me PLUS some.. lots more than just some. I have heard all the bad about this school and that school.. Why this school is better than that school. Not every decision is based on the experience of others. Not every decision is based on the thoughts and ideas of others. My decision to send her to school here or there is really not anyone’s “problem” except mine.

It has begun. I just realized after typing that paragraph that the world has begun it’s judging. Why do people have to stereotype or judge you? I mean, if I sent her to that school we would have been looked at as the “stuck up type”.. or if it was the other school it would have been the “to Christian type”.. what about another school? oh, then we would have been the “trying to be better than everyone else” type. REALLY PEOPLE.. How about we are the type that wants to make the right decisions and the best decisions for our family. REGARDLESS of where we live, where she goes to school, where we work, what I go to school for, and who my friends/family is. Regardless of what you think would be the right decision for you in the moment I am currently in. How about GOD loves us and so should you?!

Funny thing: these opinions have all come from people WITHOUT kids. opinions based on if they have kids. I understand.. I was there at one point too. When I have a baby, I wont use a pacy.. (HA.. that didn’t work out so well. Mady had it until she was 2) When I have a baby I am not going to sleep with her (HA.. slept with her every night until she was 12 weeks old) The list honestly goes on. Until you are in the position (of that crying baby because they just want to suck on a harmless pacy) of making a decision for your child in that exact moment, even if it will affect the rest of their life.. you really don’t have much to say. You REALLY don’t have much to say.

Maybe I have chosen the school I chose because what you are saying that is negative to you is a positive to me!? Maybe I chose where I want to live based on how I want to raise my child, or how we would feel as a family living here or there. MAYBE my decisions will change when it comes down to the moment that a new decision needs to be made. but, for now, what I am doing is not your business. If your intentions are good or not, THEY SUCK when you come at it from a point of view of “I would never, or if I had kids, or I heard this from a close friend”  If your intentions are coming from the point of “did you think about this or maybe this could work, or I have heard some good and bad.. do you want me to tell you?”  ITS ALL ABOUT THE WAY YOU APPROACH IT PEOPLE!

I am not mad. I honestly could care less (now that I vented) because I am the one that is raising MY CHILD. I am the one that is going to make the best decisions for her. I MEAN COME ON PEOPLE. Have you seen how beautiful, sweet, smart, funny, and talented my child is.. and you really are going to put your non parenting self’s opinion on me. I have done an amazing job.. I will continue to do an amazing job. The opinions of others DO make you think of things you may not have thought about before.. but please.. no matter what situation you are talking about or who you are talking to, try your hardest not to judge the choices of others. I am guilty myself.. I am not perfect. BUT I do not judge the parents that choose public over private.. or choose a diapers over pull ups.. or choose candy over veggies. (although the candy over veggies is hard for me not to judge now that I am going to be in the Dental field).. I DO NOT JUDGE THEIR PARENTING SKILLS..because they have their child.. I have mine.. and if you want to raise a child.. have one of your own..

Thank you! I am done..

p.s. for the ones that have a child and have been there or are there.. I always love your input! for the ones that I ask their opinion or the ones that know I want their opinions or the ones that are truly giving their opinion out of love and the ones that have a right to voice their opinions {family} .. please keep your opinions coming.. This is NOT intended towards you at all!

Back in the Kitchen

 

I once was an aspiring home chef. Meaning, I was learning to cook. Once I learned to cook how to follow a recipe, I was killin it! Ok, maybe killin it isn’t the right word to use when I am talking about feeding people the food I am cooking. But you get my point. After a while I got burnt (no pun intended) out on the whole cooking foods I have never tasted.

Guess what.. I am back!!

Today I made Kale Chips

Then for dinner, homemade Sushi

Neither one I have ever attempted or thought about making. Both of them.. HUGE SUCCESS

Click here for my Kale Chips and here for my Sushi post!!

Sneak Peek:

Crunchy Kale Chips

 

Shrimp and Avocado Sushi

We go to the Dentist Wednesday..

Round two.. this time, she will let them clean her teeth.. she doesn't have an option

plus, I bribed her.. yes indeed.. we go to build a bear if she is great at the dentist.. I mean, it ins't like she is being bribed into somthing she should already know or do.. It is new.. it is more like a prize or a reward for being awesome during somthing that can be scary.

Just keep your fingers crossed!!

PHONE DUMP

 

The S house has been busy! Painting, redecorating, girls night, and then there is the usual.. chasing around, laughing with, and being amazed by a beautiful 4 1/2 year old.

She was supposed to be cleaning her room.
She said “dressing like a firefighter helps me know where to put my toys at mommy”

“Look Mommy, ha-ha, is my crown upside down?”

I just had to take a picture of this. We (and I mean her and myself) always have booty crack issues. For her it is, her legs are short so either the pants are too long or too tight. There is never enough fabric to cover us “booty blessed” people. Our booty is a lot to cover, our crack is high, and pants are made like everyone is built the same. It is a no win situation for us and pants but we make due. When I walked into this (it was a first) I just had to snap!

Oh yes.. it IS winter, the sun IS out, it is in the high 60s low 70s
and we just LOVE this weather!

Mom, Mady, and I have been going on afternoon walks when I get home from school. It is funny because she has not sat in this stroller since she was maybe 2ish. She is HUGE in it! It works but I am sure some people have laughed at us. The head rest comes to her upper back, her feet can drag on the ground, and there is no room for a doll or stuffed animal to ride. She loves it though. Perfect place for all her stuff she brings on these walks!

Let me add this: all these were taken with my phone. I am sooooo looking forward to March 20th when I get to update my phone! WHOOP WHOOP! All for the camera!

The good, bad, and thankfulness

The Good

The good.. my mom and I have been walking 3 days a week. This is good for the both of us. Madyson really enjoys it too, she is all relaxed with her food and camera. Also, my friend that needed/still needs silent prayer request, the prayer request are helping. All is not great, it actually is still a really long road that she and her family are having to go down but it could be worse and she sees it like that. Keep the prayers going please.

The Bad

I have not been blogging, taking pictures, posting pictures, updating Mady’s blog. This is bad because I love blogging and pictures! I just have been busy.. using my spare time watching Grays Anatomy. This also means I have not read a book. In Feb. I did not finish reading any book at all. Got to get back on track!

The Thankfulness
I am thankful for God watching over us during the storms. I know many people did lose everything, life's were taken, homes and towns were destroyed. As selfish as this sounds, I am alive, my family is safe, I am thankful for this! Lets hope that was the worse of the storms for this year!

Stop Counting

 

I have decided to stop counting calories, carbs, sugar, sodium, and everything in between. I have decided that it since we only have 20ish weeks until Hawaii, my best bet is to just eat healthy. While I was counting, I was eating healthy. I was actually eating a balanced diet. Now, I am going to unbalance my diet (in a good way).

Protein

Fruit

Veggies

Water

(maybe a glass of skim milk here and there)

That is it. Simple. No reason to count. I am not going to eat any bread for any reason. That goes for fried things, things like pancakes, or PBJs. The only carbish thing I am going to allow myself outside of the above list is corn tortillas. We go to Mexican a lot so I have to be realistic and allow something because I am not going to just not go, or not eat. So Ill get the bar tender (who is also a friend, and cooks our food for us sometimes) to grill up some chicken and veggies. Then Ill add it to a corn tortilla and maybe my mouth will be tricked into it being a fajita. {I say tricked because my fajitas consist of meat, guac, cheese, beans, rice.. pretty much everything but veggies)

Well, the count down begins until Hawaii!! whoop whoop'

and so she says…

 

Goodness kids say the darndest things! Do you remember that show with Bill Cosby? I loved that show. Well anyways, I have front row tickets to that show on a daily basis. She usually says thinks that make me laugh till I cry. Some of the time, especially now that she is going on 5 8 years old, she says things that I can’t believe come out of her mouth. This that are not appropriate for a child to say. Things that I want to laugh about but then I am taken back about and then have to explain why she can not say it again. It has been a while since I posted “and so she says” but these are worth the wait!

 

Mady is writing books in class. She was saying she wanted to write one for NaNa and Gumps and one for Zak and I.

Mady: what do you like?

Me: I like playing outside with you. Jumping in puddles, chalk, playing ball

NuNu: what do you want to write about for NaNa and Gumps?

Mady: I don’t know

NuNu: what do they reeeaaalllly like?

Mady: I don’t know

Me: think about it.

NuNu: what is something that NaNa loves?

Mady: ::pauses:: (all excited that she knows what NaNa likes..)  “she likes being old”

That is the moment my mom almost spued her drink everywhere. The moment I had to repeat it in my head (a few times).. then, I laughed.. tears in my eyes laugh!

and so she says!

This is just a quick one:

sitting at the dinner table

Mady: what’s that smell?

Me: what smell?

Mady: it smells like booty in here

Me: what did you just say? Why.. what.. where.. why would you say that? Where did you hear that? What do you mean it smells like booty? When have you smelled booty?

(and then a NuNu story starts.. a NuNu story is a story that mady makes up, fabricates, and then tells that is a completely out of the blue and made up.. a lie.. and it includes NuNu in a situation, usually as the main character of the wrong doing, that my mom would NEVER do/say/have/be/tell/ask/give/allow/ or anything else that is being said during the story)

I have more but it is past midnight and I need to go to bed.. soo leaving this as a

TO BE CONTINUED!  (don’t you hate seeing those words..)

Tornados scare me..

 

Tornados freak me out. I have a fear of being picked up by one, thrown around, and smashing into whatever it throws me down at. Honestly, it really is a huge fear of mine. I am great with rain (if I am indoors and don’t have to drive) I am ok with thunder and lightning (if I am indoors and don’t have to drive or sleep) I am NOT ok with wind when it is storming. I am NOT ok with the “conditions being favorable” for a tornado. The hot temps followed by a cool front (or vise versa). I am NOT ok with tornados. NOT AT ALL.

I am that crazy girl, sitting in the safest place of the house, 2 ipads fully charged with the weather channel on one and the local weather on the other, the radar pulled up on my phone, pillows surrounding me, a bean bag in place to cover my head, and my heart beating out of my chest. All for a tornado warning.. I have my basket ready to go with my weather radio, external hard drive (all Mady’s pics from birth to now are on there) batteries, flashlight, and even my camera when I hear we have a tornado watch. They freak me out.. freak me out!

Some people stand outside or at the window to watch the weather, the clouds, the tornado.. They are the crazy ones!! I don’t want to see one. I don’t want to hear one. I don’t want to watch for one. Never ever!

They devastate towns, families, people.

Last April, I experienced a tornado and didn’t even truly realize it until I walked outside and saw the damage. Then I saw the pictures from Alabama and what I saw was nothing compared to the pictures in AL. Although I freak out before, during the actual “happening” of storms like that I am clam. (only if I am inside and I am safe, and Mady is safe)

Tornados hit again a few days ago. March 3rd 2012 (they actually also hit 2 days before on Feb 28th 2012 in the south also.. a record setting leap day for tornados and death) The March 3rd tornados his close to home. Less than an hour away. Where people I know live. Although we didn’t get the worse of it (towns in KY did) there is devastation.

(30 mins from my house)

(30 mins from my house)

(less than 2 hours away)

These 3 pictures from just March 3rd 2012 are enough reason for me to be afraid of Tornados.. Not to mention that last April in AL around 250 people died from the tornado that hit and the pictures from that tornado I can not even look at without feeling sick.

One of many sad stories, a toddler was found like 12 miles from its home in a field. It had survived while it mother, father, 2 month old sibling, and 2 year old sibling had died. Sunday, the toddler took a turn for the worse and also died. An entire family died.. and this is just one story from just one day. It makes my heart hurt.

SO Yes, yes, tornado warnings are to be taken serious. Yes, I would rather hide during the warning from the moment it is given to the moment it is canceled. No, I do not sleep when there is a tornado WATCH.. yes I lay there checking the radar every 2 seconds for a warning, yes I wake my child up and go downstairs. Yes, I would rather be that crazy girl afraid of a tornado because being afraid, I believe, will keep me safe and alert.

On a good note though, the majority of people were ok. We even made it to Nashville with 3 total mins of rain the entire drive.

A little bit of everything..

 

I have been very busy for the past month. School, home decorating, Mady’s school, out of town, and so on.. Really, the list does go on.

So here are just some updates:

1- living room, kitchen, and bathroom are currently repainted! YAY. I am loving it more than you could ever know. The living room is a blue (ish gray), kitchen is a slightly light gray (being accented with bright yellow and lime green), and the bathroom is also a light gray (with eggplant purple accents) When the rooms are complete I will post pictures! Light fixture for the bathroom has been purchased, medicine cabinet, picture, and small details have been added! Just need a rug and to install the light fixture. Kitchen is far from being finished but it is kind of nice walking into an empty undecorated freshly painted room. Living room really has no plans for being redone. New rug and/or curtains, new cubby shelf needed above the shoe bench, and maybe (if we can ever find what we are looking for) some light on the far end of the couch. That really is all that could be done differently since we have been working on that room since the beginning and are pretty pleased with it currently.

2- went out of town this weekend to Nashville. Had an amazing, amazing, amazing time! Dave and Busters is awesome! It is sooo different at 26 years old than at 13 years old. Oh yea! Adult chucky cheese! Games, food, drinks, friends.. what more can you ask for? Well, how about a downtown pub hop with live music? That was exactly what we got the next night. Pictures and details are coming soon!

3- school is, of course, going great. Mid term grade for Dental Science (Anatomy) 105. That is because I love that class, it is all interesting, I want to be a scientist, and the teacher rocks since she teaches the exact way I learn. Preventative Dentistry, 95.. only because I missed a few days. We get counted off for days we are absent. All homework has been a 100, the only test we have had was a 105, soo.. it is stupid I have a 95. BLAH. Computers, yea.. she doesn’t have all the grades recorded.. that’s ok though, I have an A for sure.